I've realised that in my blog I'm just stating about school school and school.

Well, I haven't blogged for months and I thought, why not write something? (I should be taking a power nap though) 

Anyways, about school, it's been a long long 8 months or so in school, sometimes I ask myself- is it really that intensive? I keep telling myself (or perhaps bluffing) that I'll do better, I'll study next time for mid years, for prelims but it's all over now. What do I get? An aggregate of 19 and 24. Is that good? Nope. But have I improved? Yes. 

You see as long as I'm improving, I'm contented. Of course we all aim for the best (ie: I really want to get into psychology) but sometimes it's not possible, given our power and circumstances- Time, effort, maturity, and many others. 

Perhaps I'm not making any sense, but I'd like to wonder, how is this whole thing gonna benefit me in 10'years time. 

I don't see the picture. The future's all furry and blurry ( well of course it is, who knows what's gonna happen?) 

I guess this year's the busiest and the "realisation year" for now aha 

I've been thinking much more, I always thought I've been over thinking about things, but now I'm thinking what I'd never thought about. The future, I've seriously started thinking about what I want to do, what I want to be. (Though it's still furry, but at least I know.) 

It's kinda funny thinking that I had no idea what I honestly wanted, (even though that may not be practical//possible, but it's still a dream isn't it?) 

No one knows about this, or perhaps the only person I've said might have already possibly forgotten. 

Whatever revolves around my brain is just me me and studies. I've been neglecting (almost) everything and that costed (perhaps) my friendship and ties with everyone. But then again I realise who's true and who's not. Those that're worth  time and effort will stay no matter what. I'm just this self-centred nowadays who gets annoyed by everything but this whole journey allowed me to get to know more company, which I'm really thankful of :) 

I guess that's it for now, I've just written whatever's on my mind and that perhaps no one would understand but whatever it is , it's still my blog :) 

Till next time!

-I miss this sometimes.