3 more weekends!!

Since we're having both English papers tomorrow, I thought: why not write something?

Time has been easier ever since the start of O's. Before that was literal misery; there wasn't anything to look forward too, nothing to be happy about nor anything eventful . Now as the end of O's closes in, it's much easier to live ( HA HA I make it sound like going through O's is the hardest thing ever. Perhaps it is for me ((as of now)) , but I understand that it isn't, there's others who are going far worst and once again, this is just a space for me to express.) 

Weekends were (are) the worst. There's tuition and although tutors are perpetually late, it's always a relief. But then again the guilt of not using the "extra" time wisely comes in. The reason on why I've added inverted commas for "extra" is because of the mockery of having 'extra' time is ironic. When do we exactly have extra time? What is extra? Time is never enough at this point in life, for me that is. 

My mom has always brought me out during the weekends to the malls to just walk around or just for meals , not being able to go out is just.. Uncomfortable. I've resented weekends for the past few months (ok maybe month.)  because I'm stuck at home mugging it'll never be productive if I'm on my own. Distractions here, there, everywhere. 

The end of O's is so so close yet so far. There's so many things I want to do, even I don't know how got the idea of those. 

This thought just came to me: some way or another everyone's going through the same process of 

1st- being afraid 

2nd - trying 

3rd - whining/complaining/failing 

4th- realisation 

5th- trying once more 

6th- well honestly I don't know how it's gonna be like after trying 

I've been taking on the relax 'route' of facing O's and I really don't know if it's the best decision, the whole "come what may" mindset actually creates the sense of guilt of not revising enough which results of being unsure of my work. 

Perhaps what others say that in "kiasu" is true and that I really am afraid to lose . 

But then, what do I have to lose? 

Alright my thoughts are really going out of control, i should really stop . 

Y

** I'm really thankful that you're reading this by the way. I've never expected anyone to read my rants and irrational thoughts. My posts are never lengthy ( like a proper blog posts) and I rarely have anything worth sharing, it's just my pointless thoughts. So, thank you. Whoever you are. 

Well talking about events, there's basically NOthing going on. My imaginaton's probably the most eventful right now, and it's nothing worth sharing. 

Hmm 

I was arranging stuff on my table and I've come across these notes (once again)! 

From the sweet senior whom I was close to. It's really nice to re-read thses for the nth time , and to know that someone cares and loves you aha 

The little happiness in life- it's nothing big but it comes with a big meaning . 

I'm gonna blabber bullcrap if I continue on 

-- till next time!!

"memories made, memories kept"

It's the last day of school term today, before we head off for our study-break in lieu of the national exams.

Study-break, is it a break for us from studying or a break for us to study? 

Anyways, I'm heading to Malaysia, Kuala  Lumpor & Bentong tomorrow, for 3 days. 

It's probably one of the worst times to go for a short trip, or perhaps one of the best times. 

It's either that it acts like a break for me, or it's just hindering my studies, 

Well of course it isn't the latter, I do believe that it's a great time for a break and that it's what might be the thing to push me on. 

Alright honestly it's just the Malaysian delicacies and the long car ride that's drawing me there.

Alright, back to the last day of school, 

The beloved math class, 

glad that I was under this teacher, Mr Tiah , who claims that he's a tyrant. Well obviously he's not, but he's a great educator, I have to admit.

Principle's of accounts, 

a subject I used to hate. It's so taxing, I couldn't understand a thing, I didn't get how the world works.

But now I do .

4E3 class of 2014 (I'm not in the picture)

probably the most problematic class ever of junyuan history, but then again, without this class, I won't have grown so much as a person!! Thanks guys 

English ,

The class that brought us most laughter, 

Perhaps the most casual lessons of all time, with Mr Vanan interacting with the class with his cold puns ( okay maybe not cold ) I bet we all had a great time. 

Sitting in the corner of the art room alone plugged in with music with one of the worst cramps ever is perhaps one of the most comforting  feeling I'd ever have. Thinking back through the past 4 years of my life, possibly the best quarter I've lived. 

Last day of school. In this school, Junyuan secondary school. 

This year's the roughest year ever I have in all my 15.5 years on earth. 

But once again I'm conscious that I've grown. And I'm not afraid to admit. 

Very thankful for all the good thoughts and effort I received from beloveds today!!

Peeps of lower secondary! We were once the most bonded class, 

how I wish we moved on throughout as one. But it's ok! Ces't la vie

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the paper bag of goodies, to be kept'2014 

till next time!

The last assembly

Graduation celebration 2014!!

( this is actually my second time writing this from memory. my phone died. annoyingggz) 

Never did I expect that there'll be a time for a graduation celebration, 

and a time for students to express their gratitude through speeches. 

Teachers actually took the time and effort in making individual gifts

 for students, despite their heavy-marking load. 

Sometimes we all take teachers for granted don't we? 

yeah teachers are indeed granted for us, why not cherish them? 

We have the privilege of having teachers around during our years 

growing up, giving us the best advice and the most valuable teachings

in a sense, being experienced students themselves.I have to say that 

teachers (every single one) has played a part in my school life, they 

lead me, and of course every other student through the right direction. 

Nurturing us and teaching us. 

School (and lessons)  hasn't been this enjoyable since awhile,

I've come to a realisation that it's just your own perspective of the 

class and the teachers. Nothing to do with the content I guess.

Live and let live~

till next time!