Do you get how many second thoughts I have when I start a post? It's so much hassle for the brain to decide how to start and what to talk about . I mean, of course it's hard when there's nothing eventful worth sharing(being a student) , but then again a blog is for expressing and letting out things isn't it?

Anyways, so many things happened this week. 

-well every week I say the same thing because (think about it) we're all growing teens, we're exposed to LIFE, where we realise and notice things; for the first time in our life. First times are still on-going for us, I guess. 

I finally handed in my coursework (for my exams) - the biggest project of my life done over the period of 8 months or so, with oh-so many changes together with the best guidance we could ever get. 

However, I've wanted to give up before and even during the course of it. 

I've always thought -'why put in so much effort when we don't even know if I can pass?' I've come to a realisation that perhaps as long as I've tried my best (And stopped procrastinating) and accept reality, the whole process provides so much lessons and skills . I guess the biggest gain is endurance and appreciation- and the people that surrounded me of course. 

My work (obviously) wasn't the best (far from good actually) but the thing is that I've benefitted from it , I mean, isn't it the whole point of education? Teaching and learning? 

Well it isn't for me to say, so I shall stop this here. I'm just glad I've taken art. 

I have a bottle obsession . (Self-proclaimed) aha 

Anyways I am still anticipating for the future as before. My thoughts still flow like the niagra falls. 

I've just came across the most uplifting song for the week( or month perhaps) . If you don't know me, I don't have a distinct genre of music that I particularly like. The day before I was blasting songs by the Carpenters in my room. It was so good. Then the other day I was jamming to chill step while doing mathematical sums. But there's nothing bad about it right? or is there..

(From www.dreammoods.com)

 Cliff

To dream that you are standing at the edge of a cliff indicates that you have reached an increased level of understanding, new awareness, and a fresh point of view. You have reached a critical point in your life and cannot risk losing control. Alternatively, it suggests that you are pondering a life-altering decision.

To dream that you or someone falls off a cliff suggests that you are going through a difficult time and are afraid of what is ahead for you. You fear that you may not be up for the challenge or that you cannot meet the expectations of others.  

To dream that you are climbing to the top of a cliff symbolizes your ambition and drive. The dream may parallel your desires to achieve success and to be the at the top of your profession. It is analogous to climbing the corporate ladder. 

Dolphins 

To see a dolphin in your dream symbolizes spiritual guidance, intellect, mental attributes and emotional trust. The dream is usually an inspirational one, encouraging you to utilize your mind to its capacity and move upward in life. Alternatively, it suggests that a line of communication has been established between the conscious and subconscious aspects of yourself. Dolphins represent your willingness and ability to explore and navigate through your emotions.

alright moving on, I had a vivid dream the other day- the only scene I could recall was that I was walking through an edge of a cliff, there was somehow a mini-puddle like river that was bright baby blue, almost turquoise.
I was following a man, whom face I never knew. then- suddenly there was a pod of dolphins leaping by the left, they were actually smiling ( somehow) and that the waves crashing were euphonic .
But there was this particular fear which I cannot distinguish.
Then the scene zoomed out (to bird's eye view) and the whole cliff ( actually come to think of it its like a mountain terrace but just beside the sea and that it held a stream of turquoise water instead of plantation.) ok back to it, the whole cliff was shaped like an airplane.. The whole zoomed out scene was like a news report . I remember seeing red, literarily.
That's all I can remember..
what does it mean?


alright, till next time X

I've realised that in my blog I'm just stating about school school and school.

Well, I haven't blogged for months and I thought, why not write something? (I should be taking a power nap though) 

Anyways, about school, it's been a long long 8 months or so in school, sometimes I ask myself- is it really that intensive? I keep telling myself (or perhaps bluffing) that I'll do better, I'll study next time for mid years, for prelims but it's all over now. What do I get? An aggregate of 19 and 24. Is that good? Nope. But have I improved? Yes. 

You see as long as I'm improving, I'm contented. Of course we all aim for the best (ie: I really want to get into psychology) but sometimes it's not possible, given our power and circumstances- Time, effort, maturity, and many others. 

Perhaps I'm not making any sense, but I'd like to wonder, how is this whole thing gonna benefit me in 10'years time. 

I don't see the picture. The future's all furry and blurry ( well of course it is, who knows what's gonna happen?) 

I guess this year's the busiest and the "realisation year" for now aha 

I've been thinking much more, I always thought I've been over thinking about things, but now I'm thinking what I'd never thought about. The future, I've seriously started thinking about what I want to do, what I want to be. (Though it's still furry, but at least I know.) 

It's kinda funny thinking that I had no idea what I honestly wanted, (even though that may not be practical//possible, but it's still a dream isn't it?) 

No one knows about this, or perhaps the only person I've said might have already possibly forgotten. 

Whatever revolves around my brain is just me me and studies. I've been neglecting (almost) everything and that costed (perhaps) my friendship and ties with everyone. But then again I realise who's true and who's not. Those that're worth  time and effort will stay no matter what. I'm just this self-centred nowadays who gets annoyed by everything but this whole journey allowed me to get to know more company, which I'm really thankful of :) 

I guess that's it for now, I've just written whatever's on my mind and that perhaps no one would understand but whatever it is , it's still my blog :) 

Till next time!

-I miss this sometimes.

2weeks gone, poof, fly.

2weeks gone, poof, fly.

Spent most of my time doing art for the last 2 weeks, well I;m glad to say that there's progress :)

let's just hope it'll all pay off? 

I guess the best memories was during the first week of holidays, where we got caught in the rain twice without an umbrella , it really felt good to be walking in the rain though. but someway i hurt my middle toe during coursework. hahahhaha and i got to wear slippers for lessons (  for a day hahahha

anyways , I FINISHED PS I LOVE YOU , finally, hahah  i had a childhood friend who read that when she was around 10 or so? I picked it up and I'm like HOW DA HECK DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT WHEN YOURE BARELY A DECADE OLD!

well i have to admit, its a good book . i started a quarter of the movie (2007) and its all around. As in , the book's much better with so so much more details.. 

OK This post took me the whole day to write. 

ok now i finished the movie, it was nice but different hahhahah 

its night time now, ok bye

INTROVERTED

Is being introverted a good thing?

Hey guyysss, its time I update.

Godzilla was awesome ok. well maybe its just so much that I'm a saddist & I'm find nuclear power intriguing.

Mumz and GrandMumz went over to KL with 2 of my grandaunts and a friend couple! . and i chose not to go.. maybe i should've, staying at home isn't productive anyways . AND I GET TO JOIN THEM ON THEIR EATING AND SHOPPING SPREE.
BUT ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, i get to have the room to myself yeyz . its been long and I really really appreciate my space. iv been overloading beds with pillows for 2 nights ! but the thing is i have to settle meals by myself. and I spent like 18 bucks for mcbreakfast and processed food/meals ! hashtagbroke.

cooked dinz last night with the last bit of macaroni :'D oh how much condensed soup and processed flash frozen meatballs go well with it. I want a day out manz, the other time with mum to have kiseki buffet was nice, but my appetite wasn't good. i only had 1 plate of sashimi , or maybe even half. sigh


I've come to a relization that I've been getting ear worms 24/7 . and I'm consistently tapping along to whatever beat , its getting tiring. ;|

earworm

ˈɪəwəːm/

noun

1. a catchy song or tune that runs continually through someone's mind.

   
   

   
   

anyways, i GUESS i won't be writing anytime soon, I'm just gonna go full on for art and other subjects . sigh pie life of a sixteen in sg. we should be having the time of our lives, i mean we are, but we're having the time of our lives mugging.

thats all for now, lets brace ourselves for LEARNINGSUPPORTPROGRAMMEEEEE :D

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It's been awhile

So I've decided to blog before I start mugging LOL
I know I'm not the first to say this but , Its amazing yet scary how time past so fast and how people get tired so quickly. ( well maybe its only me. )

It's raining! yay. What a nice day to mug at home. I'm serious. I'm in my floral (LOL) PJ pants and a tee writing.

So for the past few weeks, I'm just (1) mugging (2) freaking out (3) sitting in the exam hall (4) sleeping{eating and all the essentials} and (5) thinking. There's really nothing much eventful for a 15 going 16yearold in Singapore who's not prepared for O;s at all.

welll I'm going on a day out with mum! It's marking day next tues (20) and we're off for lunch and window shopping before a band performance by tkgs band @ esplanade! Really really looking forward to it! Just hoping that it'll all go smoothly hahhahaahah .

It's the last 2 papers tomorrow, and I can relax on tuesday then go back to face the music on wednesday. well I'd rather face the genuine music. in band. It's been a weird past few months inside .


ohohoh and we were covering about the Cuban missile crisis in history class the other day and teacher showed us part of "Thirteen Days" and It was so cool. I finished the movie at home last friday. I wanted to watch it with Dad but turns out he wasn't interested :(  I ended up watching the movie on my macbook in my room alone hahahahaha. should have chewed on something then, but the movie was so intriguing I couldn't leave! I'm guessing that I'm the only teenage girl who's so interested. Is it good or bad….. should I be fangirling over one direction or crying over EXO instead? I choose none.

I better get started on Biology, its past one pm.
Till next time!

"I used to stare out of my bedroom window when I was younger. 

Thinking to myself  : I could stare outside all day. 

I was contented. "

//I BLOG WHEN IM HAAAPPPYYYYY

HEEEEYYYY.

BEFORE YOU START :



I BLOG WHEN IM HAAAPPPYYYYY.

Life changes. Now's just a period where we all focus for Os and I'm thankful for whoever's around to support me :)

SOOO I guess I won't be updating this as often , but I still wanna share about the significant events I experience during these years of growing up :)

HEADING TO KISEKI JAP BUFFET THIS WEEKEND . MYBANANAS I'm excited heheheh shall blog after !

you know somehow I guess my way of writing & blogging's different from everyone. Its just weird heehhhh but you is you , me is me.

have I ever mentioned that.. I WANNA WRITE AFTER O LEVELS. as in . a story. ahhhhhaaaa weird. but all these "post exam thoughts" shall me kept at the end of my mind & STUDY FIRST. heeehhhhh




Its goodfriday this week, and I GET TO SLEEEEP INNNNN.
Does thinking tire one out so much that one actually sleeps for 7 hours and still feels sleepy in school.
YES.



I kinda read this the other day and , its kinda scary that its so real & relatable

Birthday Persona Profile 

People born specifically on the 13th of July are believed to be charismatic, pragmatic and focused with the typical crab nurturing loyal temperament. The ruling astrological planet for this particular day is Uranus guiding you to be highly instinctive and to usually learn best via experience. If you have this birthday a serious determined nature makes you veryresponsible and in possession of a strong sense of duty. Hard working, efficient and organized you are ordinarily tough but fair with an eye for quality and a dislike of waste. Individuals with a July the thirteenth birthday may strive for material security yet are not greedy and are rather sensitive to the needs of others. Lots of patience and persistence helps you be good at taking advantage of favorable opportunities and intensifies your naturally caring protective side. You are also however fearful of change and your confidence is soon knocked by setbacks or failure. 

More:http://www.gotohoroscope.com/birthday-horoscopes/july-13th.html

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okay till next time!