Hellosssss
It's the first day of the holidaysssss so yeah
We had cross country on Saturday and it wasn't that baddddd but. Bryan lost his wallet hahaha
Shopping trip ok Sunday to Orcharddddd and yeah :) had funnnnn
So had piano in the late morningg. Then HuiCheng and KenJun came over just nowww to sorta do homework hahahaha. They're like so closeeeee haha and yeahh THEYACTUALLYKEPTASECRETFROMME :( that's saddddddd. Very sadddddd.
I'm so tired haha. Still have some band stuff to do and yeahhhh all the best to me hahaha. There's band tomorrowwwww. I wonder how everything will go. Masterclass this Friday :O haha okay bye.
Xxsammy
Monday, March 18, 2013
Thursday, March 14, 2013
26D10P
OKAY GUYS HELLO.
Its thursday and I'm here, not gonna do anything and just write.
There's band todayyyyy and I'm gonna just rant.
I think I've said this before, but IREALLY MISS THE PAST. Seniors used to be close with me and all.. We laugh and go high together, when all my friends outcasted me last time, I always think that I'm so lucky I have my seniors.. but now? I think they see me in a different light. Maybe they think I'm ignoring them and showing them attitude.. But its not.. I really don't know how to react now when I see them.. It was still fine before the TA break but now its like. We are ALL really drifting. Well, at least that's how I feel..
When I take charge of the band I sometimes really really don't know what to say and what to do. Fuz is always always busy with her own percussionists and usually Yl and Js aren't around to guide me. I take a longgggg time to think of what to say. I need to think of the outcome yessss. I am a person who cannot express herself properly.. I really can't. Helpppp??
We've gotten a Mini lecture from MrW today anddddd Yeah. He taught us quite some stuff to be leaders.. Am I really quiet? But everytime I 'scold' and be serious, juniors will say about me. should it be like this? should I be scolding and all? someone teach me..
Haisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
okaybyenomoodtowritealready
xxsammmmyyyy
Its thursday and I'm here, not gonna do anything and just write.
There's band todayyyyy and I'm gonna just rant.
I think I've said this before, but IREALLY MISS THE PAST. Seniors used to be close with me and all.. We laugh and go high together, when all my friends outcasted me last time, I always think that I'm so lucky I have my seniors.. but now? I think they see me in a different light. Maybe they think I'm ignoring them and showing them attitude.. But its not.. I really don't know how to react now when I see them.. It was still fine before the TA break but now its like. We are ALL really drifting. Well, at least that's how I feel..
When I take charge of the band I sometimes really really don't know what to say and what to do. Fuz is always always busy with her own percussionists and usually Yl and Js aren't around to guide me. I take a longgggg time to think of what to say. I need to think of the outcome yessss. I am a person who cannot express herself properly.. I really can't. Helpppp??
We've gotten a Mini lecture from MrW today anddddd Yeah. He taught us quite some stuff to be leaders.. Am I really quiet? But everytime I 'scold' and be serious, juniors will say about me. should it be like this? should I be scolding and all? someone teach me..
Haisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
okaybyenomoodtowritealready
xxsammmmyyyy
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
27 days
MOOOOOO
So 25% of battery left here on my MacBook. yayy just nice to post yeah? :)
So life these two days have been okaaayy I don't really have much to write about but yeahh
last week of school. endure endure endure!
I don't have much homework todaaaaay so I guess I'll do something productive maybe?
hmmm.. what shall I do? hmmm...
So 25% of battery left here on my MacBook. yayy just nice to post yeah? :)
So life these two days have been okaaayy I don't really have much to write about but yeahh
last week of school. endure endure endure!
I don't have much homework todaaaaay so I guess I'll do something productive maybe?
hmmm.. what shall I do? hmmm...
Music is enough for a lifetime, but a lifetime isn't enough for music. (Sergei Rachmaninoff)
When an artist is playing wonderfully, the self no longer exists. There is only love and beauty, and that is art. (Krishnamurti)
I found these two quotes interesting so I guess I'll share them with you :)
THE COUNTDOWN IS ONNNNNN
27DAYS.
BYE.
Monday, March 11, 2013
Last week of term 1
Okay hellos it's like 5pm hereeeeee anddddddd I've just finished school. As in academically. Isn't it sad? It's Monday and school is so long. I officially have Monday blues + Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday morning blues. :( but the good thing is. It's the last week before term break yay!!
So. I forgotten to bring my sketch book today for art. And I need to bring it tomorrow. Yay. More load tomorrow. .___.
We've just balloted our SYF competition date. It's on Tuesday, 9 April 230pm: okaaaaaay. I hope it's a good day good time. I hope there isn't much lessons before, I won't be able to concentrate I tell you. I wasn't able to sleep even before the Rehearsal. And who knows what may happen the night before the actual SYF. HashTagPrayHard.
There's really really little time left. :( and seniors are gonna step down RIGHT after SYF, leaving the whole band in our hands.
I've gotten back on reading fanfics hahahahaha I have no idea why I stopped but yeah. I must've been really busy. But I guess I've sorta gotten used to the business now. Anddd yeah.
We have a week break before the term 2 starts. Which means a real break. NOT.
CCA on Tuesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday. Yay. Maths remedial on Thursday and Tuesday. But I won't be going for Tuesday's due to CCA. I hope I can at least relax and chill with my friends for at least a day? And I HAVE 2 SHOPPING DATES IN PLAN!!! With Mom and Aunt. Looking forward to it so badlyyy haha.
You know, the boojas, which consists 3 of us, have signed up for Chinese tuition hahaha yay BooTuition :) but the sad thing is that it's on Friday NIGHT. I mean, who would want CHINESETUITION on a Friday. AFRIDAY!! Usually Fridays are my rest day :( but yeah. Still, BOOTUITION FTW.
There's house meeting tomorrow. And I don't like houses. It's like. WHATSTHEFRIGGINPOINTOFIT.
And it eats into my cca time :( that's very sad. AND WHAT'S SADDER IS THERE'S CROSS COUNTRY THIS SATURDAY AND ITS COMPULSORY. :( No cca :(
Alright I have nothing else to sayyy :)
Xx, SAMMYYYYYYYY
Ps I WANT THE PAIR OF KEDS SO BADLY :( anyone knows where to get it?
So. I forgotten to bring my sketch book today for art. And I need to bring it tomorrow. Yay. More load tomorrow. .___.
We've just balloted our SYF competition date. It's on Tuesday, 9 April 230pm: okaaaaaay. I hope it's a good day good time. I hope there isn't much lessons before, I won't be able to concentrate I tell you. I wasn't able to sleep even before the Rehearsal. And who knows what may happen the night before the actual SYF. HashTagPrayHard.
There's really really little time left. :( and seniors are gonna step down RIGHT after SYF, leaving the whole band in our hands.
I've gotten back on reading fanfics hahahahaha I have no idea why I stopped but yeah. I must've been really busy. But I guess I've sorta gotten used to the business now. Anddd yeah.
We have a week break before the term 2 starts. Which means a real break. NOT.
CCA on Tuesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday. Yay. Maths remedial on Thursday and Tuesday. But I won't be going for Tuesday's due to CCA. I hope I can at least relax and chill with my friends for at least a day? And I HAVE 2 SHOPPING DATES IN PLAN!!! With Mom and Aunt. Looking forward to it so badlyyy haha.
You know, the boojas, which consists 3 of us, have signed up for Chinese tuition hahaha yay BooTuition :) but the sad thing is that it's on Friday NIGHT. I mean, who would want CHINESETUITION on a Friday. AFRIDAY!! Usually Fridays are my rest day :( but yeah. Still, BOOTUITION FTW.
There's house meeting tomorrow. And I don't like houses. It's like. WHATSTHEFRIGGINPOINTOFIT.
And it eats into my cca time :( that's very sad. AND WHAT'S SADDER IS THERE'S CROSS COUNTRY THIS SATURDAY AND ITS COMPULSORY. :( No cca :(
Alright I have nothing else to sayyy :)
Xx, SAMMYYYYYYYY
Ps I WANT THE PAIR OF KEDS SO BADLY :( anyone knows where to get it?
Friday, March 8, 2013
Saturday Afternoon
Helloss ! I just returned from CCA and I'm here writing this. :)
Wifey and I finally had the time to chat outside last night and Nicholas and her even became rivals hahahahahahahhahaah on self entertaining. Iknowrightwhatthehell hahahahhahah
okay sooooooo.
We had auditions just nowwwwww and My turn was badly done. My breathing was off, My tone was wavering, My lips were shaking and yeah. it was that bad..
I actually miss the times when Js haven't moved to punggol and the gang of us would actually walk to the next busstop but nowwww. Yl has her Dx and Ye and it only ends up me walking with Nic and sometimes Fuz. Its just not the sameeees. :( But all these come and go right? Its just life..
I guess I'll just keep it short with Band stuff hahaha I'm just boring you guys hahhah.
Wifey Introduced me this and its aweshummmmmm hahaha lols . okay bye.
Wifey and I finally had the time to chat outside last night and Nicholas and her even became rivals hahahahahahahhahaah on self entertaining. Iknowrightwhatthehell hahahahhahah
okay sooooooo.
We had auditions just nowwwwww and My turn was badly done. My breathing was off, My tone was wavering, My lips were shaking and yeah. it was that bad..
I actually miss the times when Js haven't moved to punggol and the gang of us would actually walk to the next busstop but nowwww. Yl has her Dx and Ye and it only ends up me walking with Nic and sometimes Fuz. Its just not the sameeees. :( But all these come and go right? Its just life..
I guess I'll just keep it short with Band stuff hahaha I'm just boring you guys hahhah.
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Screwed.
Hey there! So as you guys noticed, I've changed design of my blog yeah? haahahah okay I'm just stating the obvious.
So, there was CCA today. I'm really lazy to write everything out. I don't have the motivation.. But yeah.
serious audition for SYF has started today officially. And I'm getting my turn on saturday. I'm screwed I tell you. Screwed. I really hope that my part doesn't fly away.. But honestly, how on earth do I play better than a 8 Grader? :'(
Falling out today wasn't any better than any of the practices.. there's something inside me that I wanna spew out but I seriously don't know how to even express myself. I'm such a failure..
Know what? I'm gonna just complete my POA work and go to bed. Maybe I'll post again.. Who knows.
Byes xx :(
So, there was CCA today. I'm really lazy to write everything out. I don't have the motivation.. But yeah.
serious audition for SYF has started today officially. And I'm getting my turn on saturday. I'm screwed I tell you. Screwed. I really hope that my part doesn't fly away.. But honestly, how on earth do I play better than a 8 Grader? :'(
Falling out today wasn't any better than any of the practices.. there's something inside me that I wanna spew out but I seriously don't know how to even express myself. I'm such a failure..
Know what? I'm gonna just complete my POA work and go to bed. Maybe I'll post again.. Who knows.
Byes xx :(
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
BandSation
okay guys this is gonna be purely a post about band. I've warned you.
So, I've recently just changed my flute yeah? to the new 102025. Its my first time using it together with the full band, together with the conductor.. and its much more easier to blow now. that's what I think.. But MrW 's saying I can't play enough. I can't blow out more. But I think I've improved ever since I've started using 102025.. I have a junior who's a 8 grader flautist. She plays better than me.. like duh. and MrW says I need to play better than her if not she's gonna play my part.. Maybe he's only pushing me but nevertheless, I'll try my best. I'll never give up.
Talking about trying, don't I seem that I'm trying to improve? I've gotten feed backs that I talk really soft and SLOW and I don't try.. But its really not easy. I'm trying my best. I'm still young as a leader and I'm still learning. You see, some things I can catch it real fast but I have no idea why I can't seem to learn as fast on this matter.. Its really hard. I'm really slow. I'm just.. myself.. why can't I be independent like the other leaders and learn fast and be more.. proactive. I'm trying. but sometimes, I'm just lost for words, IDK what to do at times.. My mind just go poof. Blank. Someone help me? How do I prevent all these from happening? How do I improve?? How? How? how. I get 'scolded' frequently and all.. well not exactly scolded but yeah.. How do the other leaders do it?? Were they like this when they started off? Did they go through all these? I know it was hard on them too before cause they didn't have such good seniors to guide them through like what we have now. But they did well.. unlike me, still hanging and struggling there..
and whats more, I have school work to cope weak.. I guess this is my worst assessment I've ever fared. I failed EMATH AND SOCIAL STUDIES, and only one A1 for History which is gonna be pulled down due to my social studies. How do I cope with all this stress? Can't we just study now and have like what? A few years to cultivate our CCA? I don't really get time to rest, to play, to enjoy like last time. It's all gone.. at least until my O's are over. WHICH IS I HAVE TO HANG ON UNTIL THE END OF NEXT YEAR.. :( Life's saddening, Life's stressful, Life's just life. We needa accept it and learn how we can go on.
xxxSammyyyyy
So, I've recently just changed my flute yeah? to the new 102025. Its my first time using it together with the full band, together with the conductor.. and its much more easier to blow now. that's what I think.. But MrW 's saying I can't play enough. I can't blow out more. But I think I've improved ever since I've started using 102025.. I have a junior who's a 8 grader flautist. She plays better than me.. like duh. and MrW says I need to play better than her if not she's gonna play my part.. Maybe he's only pushing me but nevertheless, I'll try my best. I'll never give up.
Talking about trying, don't I seem that I'm trying to improve? I've gotten feed backs that I talk really soft and SLOW and I don't try.. But its really not easy. I'm trying my best. I'm still young as a leader and I'm still learning. You see, some things I can catch it real fast but I have no idea why I can't seem to learn as fast on this matter.. Its really hard. I'm really slow. I'm just.. myself.. why can't I be independent like the other leaders and learn fast and be more.. proactive. I'm trying. but sometimes, I'm just lost for words, IDK what to do at times.. My mind just go poof. Blank. Someone help me? How do I prevent all these from happening? How do I improve?? How? How? how. I get 'scolded' frequently and all.. well not exactly scolded but yeah.. How do the other leaders do it?? Were they like this when they started off? Did they go through all these? I know it was hard on them too before cause they didn't have such good seniors to guide them through like what we have now. But they did well.. unlike me, still hanging and struggling there..
and whats more, I have school work to cope weak.. I guess this is my worst assessment I've ever fared. I failed EMATH AND SOCIAL STUDIES, and only one A1 for History which is gonna be pulled down due to my social studies. How do I cope with all this stress? Can't we just study now and have like what? A few years to cultivate our CCA? I don't really get time to rest, to play, to enjoy like last time. It's all gone.. at least until my O's are over. WHICH IS I HAVE TO HANG ON UNTIL THE END OF NEXT YEAR.. :( Life's saddening, Life's stressful, Life's just life. We needa accept it and learn how we can go on.
xxxSammyyyyy
Monday, March 4, 2013
Stop and stare, I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Alright guys so. Here's just an update from meeeeeeeee :) I know I haven't posted for quite sometime. I'm so sorryyysss. But yeah. It's my blog, my life I post whenever I want yeahhhh. I guess there'll be a photog update on CNY and life but here's just a literacy one first yeah. :)
Okay so. We've all completed the TA and the results are mostly back. I've gotten all of my results except for languages and SocialStudies :3 and guess what. I FAILED ELEMENTARY MATH . That's so depressing you know. I never failed a TA paper except for my second language :( But it's okayss I'm gonna work hard and score better next time.
I scored 17 for chem and 15 for bio on the total of 50, 25 for each component. And I guess roughly I got 2nd highest in class? Oh and I topped history of my class.
BUT YOU KNOW THAT MISS ROSS WENT TO LIE TO 4e1 SAYING THAT NO ONE PASSED IN MA CLASS. It scared the shit out of my I tell you. Never ever ever ever scare me like this. :'(
Anywayssss CCA has been okay for me. Just a little bumpy due to the study break and the band lost alot of confidence. But I'm confident that we'll build their confidence in no time. Oh oh and I'VE GOTTEN A NEW FLUTEEEEE <3 yaynesssss I'm the ultimate owner YAYYY hahaha Miyazawa 102025 :) Sooooo yeah. Life's been like this.. And I've gotten pretty close with Nicholas. We talk on the phone and text frequentlyyy so yeah. That's just normal to be close close friends yeah? Hahahaha
Anyways I wanna end this post with my beloved HuiChengggggggg <3 I love her to the max I tell youssssss hahah lol she's my only bestie I can always be with in my class and you know how important that is. Hahahahahah alrightssss byesssss I'llll updateeeeeee soonnnnnns.
Here's a picture of HC and I and my beloved Miyazawa <3
Okay so. We've all completed the TA and the results are mostly back. I've gotten all of my results except for languages and SocialStudies :3 and guess what. I FAILED ELEMENTARY MATH . That's so depressing you know. I never failed a TA paper except for my second language :( But it's okayss I'm gonna work hard and score better next time.
I scored 17 for chem and 15 for bio on the total of 50, 25 for each component. And I guess roughly I got 2nd highest in class? Oh and I topped history of my class.
BUT YOU KNOW THAT MISS ROSS WENT TO LIE TO 4e1 SAYING THAT NO ONE PASSED IN MA CLASS. It scared the shit out of my I tell you. Never ever ever ever scare me like this. :'(
Anywayssss CCA has been okay for me. Just a little bumpy due to the study break and the band lost alot of confidence. But I'm confident that we'll build their confidence in no time. Oh oh and I'VE GOTTEN A NEW FLUTEEEEE <3 yaynesssss I'm the ultimate owner YAYYY hahaha Miyazawa 102025 :) Sooooo yeah. Life's been like this.. And I've gotten pretty close with Nicholas. We talk on the phone and text frequentlyyy so yeah. That's just normal to be close close friends yeah? Hahahaha
Anyways I wanna end this post with my beloved HuiChengggggggg <3 I love her to the max I tell youssssss hahah lol she's my only bestie I can always be with in my class and you know how important that is. Hahahahahah alrightssss byesssss I'llll updateeeeeee soonnnnnns.
Here's a picture of HC and I and my beloved Miyazawa <3
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