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OKAY GUYS HELLO.
Its thursday and I'm here, not gonna do anything and just write.
There's band todayyyyy and I'm gonna just rant.
I think I've said this before, but IREALLY MISS THE PAST. Seniors used to be close with me and all.. We laugh and go high together, when all my friends outcasted me last time, I always think that I'm so lucky I have my seniors.. but now? I think they see me in a different light. Maybe they think I'm ignoring them and showing them attitude.. But its not.. I really don't know how to react now when I see them.. It was still fine before the TA break but now its like. We are ALL really drifting. Well, at least that's how I feel..
When I take charge of the band I sometimes really really don't know what to say and what to do. Fuz is always always busy with her own percussionists and usually Yl and Js aren't around to guide me. I take a longgggg time to think of what to say. I need to think of the outcome yessss. I am a person who cannot express herself properly.. I really can't. Helpppp??
We've gotten a Mini lecture from MrW today anddddd Yeah. He taught us quite some stuff to be leaders.. Am I really quiet?  But everytime I 'scold' and be serious, juniors will say about me. should it be like this? should I be scolding and all? someone teach me..


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okaybyenomoodtowritealready
xxsammmmyyyy