"Being Kind Of Sad That Christmas Is Tomorrow, And Then It’s Over For A Year"

came across this on the thought catalogue and thought of writing something. perhaps I should end my blog in a better and a more responsible way. 

right its kinda over for 2014.. 

well it's been a year full of downs and ups . well downs mostly but yes! I got over O's . 

the thing is, I guess it's been the most eventful year for me so far. emotionally and mentally . 

I don't exactly know how to express this but. realisation is the word to it. 

life for me this year's like .. I've been cooped up all along and on some days i just.. realised what wasn't right and what I should have done.. and realised why things happen

I guess it's just part of adolescence? 

and the experiences I've had was inexplicable by myself . 

last year at school was.. great? 

I really shouldn't dwell on the past.

let's look forward for a better 2015?

goodbye

HEY.
Ok so O's has finally finally finally ended, and yes, it sounds cliche and mainstream but- it's really fast.
boom it's over.
well I won't dwell here in this post, and yeah, I tried my best.

So many thoughts but so little words.

ok maybe not little words, it's just I don't know how to put them in words

I just wanted to say that I'll be changing sites.
I won't be writing here any more :)

Thanks for any support and that I will post a link to a new space if I ever create one.
This blog will go on private from 2015 onwards.


goodbye

3 more weekends!!

Since we're having both English papers tomorrow, I thought: why not write something?

Time has been easier ever since the start of O's. Before that was literal misery; there wasn't anything to look forward too, nothing to be happy about nor anything eventful . Now as the end of O's closes in, it's much easier to live ( HA HA I make it sound like going through O's is the hardest thing ever. Perhaps it is for me ((as of now)) , but I understand that it isn't, there's others who are going far worst and once again, this is just a space for me to express.) 

Weekends were (are) the worst. There's tuition and although tutors are perpetually late, it's always a relief. But then again the guilt of not using the "extra" time wisely comes in. The reason on why I've added inverted commas for "extra" is because of the mockery of having 'extra' time is ironic. When do we exactly have extra time? What is extra? Time is never enough at this point in life, for me that is. 

My mom has always brought me out during the weekends to the malls to just walk around or just for meals , not being able to go out is just.. Uncomfortable. I've resented weekends for the past few months (ok maybe month.)  because I'm stuck at home mugging it'll never be productive if I'm on my own. Distractions here, there, everywhere. 

The end of O's is so so close yet so far. There's so many things I want to do, even I don't know how got the idea of those. 

This thought just came to me: some way or another everyone's going through the same process of 

1st- being afraid 

2nd - trying 

3rd - whining/complaining/failing 

4th- realisation 

5th- trying once more 

6th- well honestly I don't know how it's gonna be like after trying 

I've been taking on the relax 'route' of facing O's and I really don't know if it's the best decision, the whole "come what may" mindset actually creates the sense of guilt of not revising enough which results of being unsure of my work. 

Perhaps what others say that in "kiasu" is true and that I really am afraid to lose . 

But then, what do I have to lose? 

Alright my thoughts are really going out of control, i should really stop . 

Y

** I'm really thankful that you're reading this by the way. I've never expected anyone to read my rants and irrational thoughts. My posts are never lengthy ( like a proper blog posts) and I rarely have anything worth sharing, it's just my pointless thoughts. So, thank you. Whoever you are. 

Well talking about events, there's basically NOthing going on. My imaginaton's probably the most eventful right now, and it's nothing worth sharing. 

Hmm 

I was arranging stuff on my table and I've come across these notes (once again)! 

From the sweet senior whom I was close to. It's really nice to re-read thses for the nth time , and to know that someone cares and loves you aha 

The little happiness in life- it's nothing big but it comes with a big meaning . 

I'm gonna blabber bullcrap if I continue on 

-- till next time!!

"memories made, memories kept"

It's the last day of school term today, before we head off for our study-break in lieu of the national exams.

Study-break, is it a break for us from studying or a break for us to study? 

Anyways, I'm heading to Malaysia, Kuala  Lumpor & Bentong tomorrow, for 3 days. 

It's probably one of the worst times to go for a short trip, or perhaps one of the best times. 

It's either that it acts like a break for me, or it's just hindering my studies, 

Well of course it isn't the latter, I do believe that it's a great time for a break and that it's what might be the thing to push me on. 

Alright honestly it's just the Malaysian delicacies and the long car ride that's drawing me there.

Alright, back to the last day of school, 

The beloved math class, 

glad that I was under this teacher, Mr Tiah , who claims that he's a tyrant. Well obviously he's not, but he's a great educator, I have to admit.

Principle's of accounts, 

a subject I used to hate. It's so taxing, I couldn't understand a thing, I didn't get how the world works.

But now I do .

4E3 class of 2014 (I'm not in the picture)

probably the most problematic class ever of junyuan history, but then again, without this class, I won't have grown so much as a person!! Thanks guys 

English ,

The class that brought us most laughter, 

Perhaps the most casual lessons of all time, with Mr Vanan interacting with the class with his cold puns ( okay maybe not cold ) I bet we all had a great time. 

Sitting in the corner of the art room alone plugged in with music with one of the worst cramps ever is perhaps one of the most comforting  feeling I'd ever have. Thinking back through the past 4 years of my life, possibly the best quarter I've lived. 

Last day of school. In this school, Junyuan secondary school. 

This year's the roughest year ever I have in all my 15.5 years on earth. 

But once again I'm conscious that I've grown. And I'm not afraid to admit. 

Very thankful for all the good thoughts and effort I received from beloveds today!!

Peeps of lower secondary! We were once the most bonded class, 

how I wish we moved on throughout as one. But it's ok! Ces't la vie

That's it folks! I update on instagram too!- http://instagram.com/sammyyytham_

the paper bag of goodies, to be kept'2014 

till next time!

The last assembly

Graduation celebration 2014!!

( this is actually my second time writing this from memory. my phone died. annoyingggz) 

Never did I expect that there'll be a time for a graduation celebration, 

and a time for students to express their gratitude through speeches. 

Teachers actually took the time and effort in making individual gifts

 for students, despite their heavy-marking load. 

Sometimes we all take teachers for granted don't we? 

yeah teachers are indeed granted for us, why not cherish them? 

We have the privilege of having teachers around during our years 

growing up, giving us the best advice and the most valuable teachings

in a sense, being experienced students themselves.I have to say that 

teachers (every single one) has played a part in my school life, they 

lead me, and of course every other student through the right direction. 

Nurturing us and teaching us. 

School (and lessons)  hasn't been this enjoyable since awhile,

I've come to a realisation that it's just your own perspective of the 

class and the teachers. Nothing to do with the content I guess.

Live and let live~

till next time!

Do you get how many second thoughts I have when I start a post? It's so much hassle for the brain to decide how to start and what to talk about . I mean, of course it's hard when there's nothing eventful worth sharing(being a student) , but then again a blog is for expressing and letting out things isn't it?

Anyways, so many things happened this week. 

-well every week I say the same thing because (think about it) we're all growing teens, we're exposed to LIFE, where we realise and notice things; for the first time in our life. First times are still on-going for us, I guess. 

I finally handed in my coursework (for my exams) - the biggest project of my life done over the period of 8 months or so, with oh-so many changes together with the best guidance we could ever get. 

However, I've wanted to give up before and even during the course of it. 

I've always thought -'why put in so much effort when we don't even know if I can pass?' I've come to a realisation that perhaps as long as I've tried my best (And stopped procrastinating) and accept reality, the whole process provides so much lessons and skills . I guess the biggest gain is endurance and appreciation- and the people that surrounded me of course. 

My work (obviously) wasn't the best (far from good actually) but the thing is that I've benefitted from it , I mean, isn't it the whole point of education? Teaching and learning? 

Well it isn't for me to say, so I shall stop this here. I'm just glad I've taken art. 

I have a bottle obsession . (Self-proclaimed) aha 

Anyways I am still anticipating for the future as before. My thoughts still flow like the niagra falls. 

I've just came across the most uplifting song for the week( or month perhaps) . If you don't know me, I don't have a distinct genre of music that I particularly like. The day before I was blasting songs by the Carpenters in my room. It was so good. Then the other day I was jamming to chill step while doing mathematical sums. But there's nothing bad about it right? or is there..

(From www.dreammoods.com)

 Cliff

To dream that you are standing at the edge of a cliff indicates that you have reached an increased level of understanding, new awareness, and a fresh point of view. You have reached a critical point in your life and cannot risk losing control. Alternatively, it suggests that you are pondering a life-altering decision.

To dream that you or someone falls off a cliff suggests that you are going through a difficult time and are afraid of what is ahead for you. You fear that you may not be up for the challenge or that you cannot meet the expectations of others.  

To dream that you are climbing to the top of a cliff symbolizes your ambition and drive. The dream may parallel your desires to achieve success and to be the at the top of your profession. It is analogous to climbing the corporate ladder. 

Dolphins 

To see a dolphin in your dream symbolizes spiritual guidance, intellect, mental attributes and emotional trust. The dream is usually an inspirational one, encouraging you to utilize your mind to its capacity and move upward in life. Alternatively, it suggests that a line of communication has been established between the conscious and subconscious aspects of yourself. Dolphins represent your willingness and ability to explore and navigate through your emotions.

alright moving on, I had a vivid dream the other day- the only scene I could recall was that I was walking through an edge of a cliff, there was somehow a mini-puddle like river that was bright baby blue, almost turquoise.
I was following a man, whom face I never knew. then- suddenly there was a pod of dolphins leaping by the left, they were actually smiling ( somehow) and that the waves crashing were euphonic .
But there was this particular fear which I cannot distinguish.
Then the scene zoomed out (to bird's eye view) and the whole cliff ( actually come to think of it its like a mountain terrace but just beside the sea and that it held a stream of turquoise water instead of plantation.) ok back to it, the whole cliff was shaped like an airplane.. The whole zoomed out scene was like a news report . I remember seeing red, literarily.
That's all I can remember..
what does it mean?


alright, till next time X

I've realised that in my blog I'm just stating about school school and school.

Well, I haven't blogged for months and I thought, why not write something? (I should be taking a power nap though) 

Anyways, about school, it's been a long long 8 months or so in school, sometimes I ask myself- is it really that intensive? I keep telling myself (or perhaps bluffing) that I'll do better, I'll study next time for mid years, for prelims but it's all over now. What do I get? An aggregate of 19 and 24. Is that good? Nope. But have I improved? Yes. 

You see as long as I'm improving, I'm contented. Of course we all aim for the best (ie: I really want to get into psychology) but sometimes it's not possible, given our power and circumstances- Time, effort, maturity, and many others. 

Perhaps I'm not making any sense, but I'd like to wonder, how is this whole thing gonna benefit me in 10'years time. 

I don't see the picture. The future's all furry and blurry ( well of course it is, who knows what's gonna happen?) 

I guess this year's the busiest and the "realisation year" for now aha 

I've been thinking much more, I always thought I've been over thinking about things, but now I'm thinking what I'd never thought about. The future, I've seriously started thinking about what I want to do, what I want to be. (Though it's still furry, but at least I know.) 

It's kinda funny thinking that I had no idea what I honestly wanted, (even though that may not be practical//possible, but it's still a dream isn't it?) 

No one knows about this, or perhaps the only person I've said might have already possibly forgotten. 

Whatever revolves around my brain is just me me and studies. I've been neglecting (almost) everything and that costed (perhaps) my friendship and ties with everyone. But then again I realise who's true and who's not. Those that're worth  time and effort will stay no matter what. I'm just this self-centred nowadays who gets annoyed by everything but this whole journey allowed me to get to know more company, which I'm really thankful of :) 

I guess that's it for now, I've just written whatever's on my mind and that perhaps no one would understand but whatever it is , it's still my blog :) 

Till next time!

-I miss this sometimes.

2weeks gone, poof, fly.

2weeks gone, poof, fly.

Spent most of my time doing art for the last 2 weeks, well I;m glad to say that there's progress :)

let's just hope it'll all pay off? 

I guess the best memories was during the first week of holidays, where we got caught in the rain twice without an umbrella , it really felt good to be walking in the rain though. but someway i hurt my middle toe during coursework. hahahhaha and i got to wear slippers for lessons (  for a day hahahha

anyways , I FINISHED PS I LOVE YOU , finally, hahah  i had a childhood friend who read that when she was around 10 or so? I picked it up and I'm like HOW DA HECK DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT WHEN YOURE BARELY A DECADE OLD!

well i have to admit, its a good book . i started a quarter of the movie (2007) and its all around. As in , the book's much better with so so much more details.. 

OK This post took me the whole day to write. 

ok now i finished the movie, it was nice but different hahhahah 

its night time now, ok bye

INTROVERTED

Is being introverted a good thing?

Hey guyysss, its time I update.

Godzilla was awesome ok. well maybe its just so much that I'm a saddist & I'm find nuclear power intriguing.

Mumz and GrandMumz went over to KL with 2 of my grandaunts and a friend couple! . and i chose not to go.. maybe i should've, staying at home isn't productive anyways . AND I GET TO JOIN THEM ON THEIR EATING AND SHOPPING SPREE.
BUT ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, i get to have the room to myself yeyz . its been long and I really really appreciate my space. iv been overloading beds with pillows for 2 nights ! but the thing is i have to settle meals by myself. and I spent like 18 bucks for mcbreakfast and processed food/meals ! hashtagbroke.

cooked dinz last night with the last bit of macaroni :'D oh how much condensed soup and processed flash frozen meatballs go well with it. I want a day out manz, the other time with mum to have kiseki buffet was nice, but my appetite wasn't good. i only had 1 plate of sashimi , or maybe even half. sigh


I've come to a relization that I've been getting ear worms 24/7 . and I'm consistently tapping along to whatever beat , its getting tiring. ;|

earworm

ˈɪəwəːm/

noun

1. a catchy song or tune that runs continually through someone's mind.

   
   

   
   

anyways, i GUESS i won't be writing anytime soon, I'm just gonna go full on for art and other subjects . sigh pie life of a sixteen in sg. we should be having the time of our lives, i mean we are, but we're having the time of our lives mugging.

thats all for now, lets brace ourselves for LEARNINGSUPPORTPROGRAMMEEEEE :D

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It's been awhile

So I've decided to blog before I start mugging LOL
I know I'm not the first to say this but , Its amazing yet scary how time past so fast and how people get tired so quickly. ( well maybe its only me. )

It's raining! yay. What a nice day to mug at home. I'm serious. I'm in my floral (LOL) PJ pants and a tee writing.

So for the past few weeks, I'm just (1) mugging (2) freaking out (3) sitting in the exam hall (4) sleeping{eating and all the essentials} and (5) thinking. There's really nothing much eventful for a 15 going 16yearold in Singapore who's not prepared for O;s at all.

welll I'm going on a day out with mum! It's marking day next tues (20) and we're off for lunch and window shopping before a band performance by tkgs band @ esplanade! Really really looking forward to it! Just hoping that it'll all go smoothly hahhahaahah .

It's the last 2 papers tomorrow, and I can relax on tuesday then go back to face the music on wednesday. well I'd rather face the genuine music. in band. It's been a weird past few months inside .


ohohoh and we were covering about the Cuban missile crisis in history class the other day and teacher showed us part of "Thirteen Days" and It was so cool. I finished the movie at home last friday. I wanted to watch it with Dad but turns out he wasn't interested :(  I ended up watching the movie on my macbook in my room alone hahahahaha. should have chewed on something then, but the movie was so intriguing I couldn't leave! I'm guessing that I'm the only teenage girl who's so interested. Is it good or bad….. should I be fangirling over one direction or crying over EXO instead? I choose none.

I better get started on Biology, its past one pm.
Till next time!

"I used to stare out of my bedroom window when I was younger. 

Thinking to myself  : I could stare outside all day. 

I was contented. "

//I BLOG WHEN IM HAAAPPPYYYYY

HEEEEYYYY.

BEFORE YOU START :



I BLOG WHEN IM HAAAPPPYYYYY.

Life changes. Now's just a period where we all focus for Os and I'm thankful for whoever's around to support me :)

SOOO I guess I won't be updating this as often , but I still wanna share about the significant events I experience during these years of growing up :)

HEADING TO KISEKI JAP BUFFET THIS WEEKEND . MYBANANAS I'm excited heheheh shall blog after !

you know somehow I guess my way of writing & blogging's different from everyone. Its just weird heehhhh but you is you , me is me.

have I ever mentioned that.. I WANNA WRITE AFTER O LEVELS. as in . a story. ahhhhhaaaa weird. but all these "post exam thoughts" shall me kept at the end of my mind & STUDY FIRST. heeehhhhh




Its goodfriday this week, and I GET TO SLEEEEP INNNNN.
Does thinking tire one out so much that one actually sleeps for 7 hours and still feels sleepy in school.
YES.



I kinda read this the other day and , its kinda scary that its so real & relatable

Birthday Persona Profile 

People born specifically on the 13th of July are believed to be charismatic, pragmatic and focused with the typical crab nurturing loyal temperament. The ruling astrological planet for this particular day is Uranus guiding you to be highly instinctive and to usually learn best via experience. If you have this birthday a serious determined nature makes you veryresponsible and in possession of a strong sense of duty. Hard working, efficient and organized you are ordinarily tough but fair with an eye for quality and a dislike of waste. Individuals with a July the thirteenth birthday may strive for material security yet are not greedy and are rather sensitive to the needs of others. Lots of patience and persistence helps you be good at taking advantage of favorable opportunities and intensifies your naturally caring protective side. You are also however fearful of change and your confidence is soon knocked by setbacks or failure. 

More:http://www.gotohoroscope.com/birthday-horoscopes/july-13th.html

[http://www.gotohoroscope.com/birthday-horoscopes/july-13th.html ] (( theres more on the site, go check your birthday out!))

okay till next time!

//gifts from France & Germany!

Hey guys! 

Mom came back from her business trip! With much gifts and stories!! 

Really glad to have her back :) her stories are kinda funny hahahah 

Anyways she got me tons of gifts , (I have no intention to brag or whatnot , I just wanted to share because I'm thankful & blessed to receive them!! ) 

- I didn't take individual shots :X hehe 

First I got my first longchamp classic, *SQUEALS! 

Got some printed cards of paintings and drawings(?) of Paris' buildings :D 

There's a cello bookmark she got from a palace around there together with a pencil with a treble clef yayness. The bookmark's reallly pretty with flowers and a tassel :) 

There's 2 tins with the effiel tower , one with mints the other with sea salted caramel toffees! 2 effiel tower key rings & an effiel tower display ahh towers overload 

Mom got me 3 arm candies and a tee( not in the picture) 

the tulip (ahhh) bookmark was from Netherlands during her transit :D and the valentine chocolate from Germany! So swwwweet hehehehe thanks mom :) love you. 

Anywaaays, she got macarons too!! Major loveeeee 

😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 

Look at the amour of stuff she got for friends and family!! Hehehehehe 

Alright  gotta end here, I'm falling asleep zzzzzz school tomorrow! :/ 

//Updateeee

so uhmm . hi.

havent; been updating much about what's going on recently, its just a bunch of irrelevant stuff.
soo i guess I'll be updating today.

these few days, we have a motivation workshop it didn't really work,  but all is well! 

I was actually experiencing the dilemma where  lost all my determination & willpower to study but I wanna do well in O's and I care about it. It's like so drama psh. Sorry. 

Ironic ha . But all is well!! I guess that short period is over & I don't wanna go through that again. It's tiring and a waste of time. And I'm really thankful for those who helped me along, really you might not feel it but it helps. 

But of course I'm still a procrastinator and I NEEED MY BREAKS HAHA . And food. 

And talking about foooood. I dk why I lost my appetite recently . I wanna eat but I'm full. What is this. Hahaha anxiety I guess. 

I'm starting my work at 2 , it's never too late to starttt . AND by work I mean school work, homework studies . Yeah I don't work part time as yet hahah . 

I think I went over on twitter this morning hahaha. I was re-twitting a whole load . Follow me! @SammyyyTham . 

Twitter and tumblr is full of unrealistic wishes. Hahhaha but a wish is still a wish. See I'm contradicting myself. Idek why. I WISH I CAN FLYYY. 

Soooo my mom's over to Germany & France . Paris yay. For her business trip. For the first time . She's away from me for a loooong time. :( 

But she gets the experience and the opportunity!! And she gets to see the wooorlddddd. Hehehehe. And buy stuff for me hahahahah. Can't wait her to be back tmr. 

I wanna actually start a bucket list, well 2 in fact . One long term, the other is kinda like by the year. But instead of bucket list shall I name the short term on bottle list? 

I got this idea to write everything down & keep it in a bottle, a glass bottle or something , then I'll only open it at the end of the year. Shall I? Hahahahha 

My Saturdays consists of 1. Lazing around 2. Procrastinating 3. Work 4. Eating 5. Lazing around. 

Okay beyee ;) 

//La vie en rose

"Hold me close and hold me fast

The magic spell you cast

This is la vie en rose

When you kiss me, heaven sighs

And though I close my eyes

I see la vie en rose

When you press me to your heart

I'm in a world apart

A world where roses bloom

And when you speak, angels, sing from above

Everyday words seem

To turn into love songs

Give your heart and soul to me

And life will always be

La vie en rose"

//Flying without wings

"Everybody's looking for a something

                                                  One thing that makes it all complete
                                                  You'll find it in the strangest places
                                                  Places you never knew it could be"

//who cares about titles.

ok so food wasn't that comforting ,

 


you get what i mean.

Haven't been studying much lately, so much distractions so much feelings.

BUT LETS JUST SAY I'M ALL OVER IT, LETS NOT THINK AND TALK ABOUT IT OK !

I was hooked onto a wattpad story since yesterday, its called- I LOVE YOU, BESTFRIEND-. and I have no idea why, its not exactly a fantastic book, there's quite some grammar errors oh wells. 

#teamJeremy 

anyways, theres always so much going on in a teenage girl's mind, 

people say i think a lot, do i really? 

well don't everyone think? about whats going on , about how they feel, about what they should do , about work , about life, about friends. don't they? 

AM I THE ONLY WEIRD ONE HEREEE. 

theres so much to worry about it ya know. 

its Os this year. 

study 

study 

study 

and not blog, 

ok bye

well maybe not.  

//LSP

march holiday's gonna end soon, did I enjoy myself ? NOPPPEE.

Had 3 days of intensive LSP , learning support programme. Well it just sounds nice but its actually just normal lessons for graduating classes , only difference is that we get to wear sneakers and school tees.
Doesn't appeal to me much, art students still needa do course work . And I guess I'm the only one lagging behind. really. I can't

Life hasn't been fun lately. well who says life always have to be.

IM FOREVER CONTRADICTING MYSELF WTF.

Having the worst cramps ever now aint doing any good for my only alone day. well not alone ,
just had piano lesson and I can't decide what song to play for next week's recital on the flute.

>:|  Maybe I'll just play open arms again. don't judge me .

A friend's coming by tmr to use my oven , for his F&N practical practice. He's going full on man LOL .
looking forward to some comforting food.

I've been so lethargic these few days. I fall asleep before 11 for the whole week and I'm tired as hell in school . Body's screwed i tell you


really not enjoying myself. now.
I wanna go for a concert or something to just.. let down my hair.

//The Coastal Settlement.

I guess, nothing much have been going on with my life so far. Its just

school 

school

school 

and

school

hias

But , unplanned, we went over to The Coastal Settlement for lunch 2 weeks ago .( ha that long) (yep)

mom and I shared a sausage rosti and a Smoked salmon salad while dad ate his steak and egg. 

Main courses!

Starters :)

Dad was complaining that the steak didn't have any sauce hhaha I was like

 HEY THE SAUCE IS THE MEATJUICE YO

But really, it was awesome 

rosti was fab too! wish i had the smoked salmon one- definitely gonna order that the next time . 

salmon salad was nice, but i didn't really fancy the veg though. love the salmon . 

IM SO CRAVING FOR SHIOK MAKI YOU KNOW. 

:( :( :( HORMONES. I BLAME YOU . 

ok night. 

guys you know I'm still feeling excited to go for band tomorrow?
even when I'm stepping down
even when its only for an hour and a half
even when I shouldn't be there
but in the library revising .

(maybe taking CLB was a right choice.

anyways .
i really really don't want to step down.

ok enough of this bullshit of not wanting to step down sam
move on



OK SO
i haven't been really really really productive lately , which I'm supposed too.

honestly after TA1 . i haven't revised much

im screwed you know

im so tired lately ya know.
hormones oh hormones

staph

anyways I chanced upon
audio machine - tree of life
--its friggin awesomeeeeee

it really helps . 

//I don't wanna

Guys I don't wanna step down mannnnnnzzzzzzz 

Imagine me on the last day, during the partz . Or maybe there won't be one , I have no idea . But you get it 

Band has always been a big big big big part of my life. Many times before , I wake up in the morning. Just for band . 

I dread school but I love my band .

It is where I grew, as a leader, as a person. 

Once where all my problems all came from, 

Once where I found all my joy in life

Once where I freaked out the night before, 

once depriving me nights of sleep 

Once where we all jumped as one because we got Accomplishment 

Every big step in band, one step in my life. 

The experiences which can't be bought, and never possible without anyone in the band. 

Guys . I'm with the band. 

Eh guys you know actually studying & eating alone is cool . Haaaa right 

But I guess everyone needs alone time & it will come by when you need it ya know. 

Like coincidental events.. Okay maybe not so much of a coincidence . Well anywaysss. I enjoyed my time with myself ahahaha wtf 

Figured that soup spoon's actually a great place to study at like 3 in the afternoon. It's cooling and there's totally no people there, and the food's great. Just that .. Pricey uh . 

ONCE IN A PURPLE MOON YO 

And I guess I'm the only one who rather stroll  in the scorching sun for 20 minutes than to take a bus and squeeze like sardines with other students in the bus to the interchange. Even if I have a direct bus home. 

It's like a routine for me to walk to the interchange & get some food OR settle down to study before going home. Only if I end school before 4 that is. 

I can only do this on Wednesdays anddddd I'm cherishing it heeeehhhhh 

Anywayssss I received a note from le wifey this morning! I have no idea about it, my mom just woke me up as usual & said that she wrote it for me! 

I have no idea when she passed it to my mom or slid under the door or whatever . 

Means a lot! 

BIG HUGs! 

//BOBO

Hey bo bosssss its been a long time.

Zoom and the whole week was gone. Honestly I didn't even know what I was doing man.

I didn't do bad for my first Term Assessment as a sec 4 yoz. but it wasn't splendid either.
L1R4 : 15
heeeehhhhhh

Remember when I said I flunked my piano exam? TURNS OUT…… I GOT A MERIT!
but just on the dot, 120 marks hehh..

Anywayssss , I haven't been having the motivation to study lately :( seriously no kickkkk can someone punch me please.
I'm forever tired
Forever dreading
Forever afraid.
ANDDD its only march now. sigh pie sigh cake sigh macaroon

POA for homework. and its turning 9 soon. what is life man.

gosh

// delayed

Hope you girls love 10MOG's first surprise heh. 

Anyways it was last day of feb on Fridayz, spent quite some quality time with lovelie Cheng . Heh fatfood 

Love you loads Cheng! 

 

Went over to SEAquarium on Saturday, 

What a day man. Actually not , I wasn't really into Marine life , fishies will always be fishies which will be exploilated by mankind for entertainment and trade purposes. 

It's funny how parents don't understand their children though. 

Went for movz with a close friend todayzz . Officially my first horror in theater . Shrieked once hahhahah. 

Gosh the air smells like smoke . 

What if there's an unknown volcanic eruption . Ahahaha .

Alright night! 

tmr's first day of my 10 MOG. ahhhhhaaaa LOL how cliche .

anywaysss
CCA today, had quite a great laugh with my beloved juniors <3 The eighties' may be the last piece that I would play in JYSB . sad uh. I was anticipating for those years.. well at least there were many pieces we've played before! But you know its really different to play alone in an ensemble compared in a full band. reading the notes, playing them when you need to , to pitch to this to that. Its fun uh.

//sushi dayz

It actually feels so good to be around with your closest friends , your girlfriends. 

Get high together, laugh together and forget about everything for a while or so, I find it peaceful. 

Guess it's been a looong time since I felt like this, been too self-centred  lately , sorry babes ! 

(Guess what 10MOG , look forward to it babesss)

Anyways, kinda blanked out during science paper today ah wells , it's over . 

The main aim is still O lvls duhh 

Didn't have a paper after that, went down to the library , tried to study but I was sooo tired heh . 

Just grabbed a random book & read . Coincidentally the main character' called Samantha too ahaha . 

It's about friendship • Dancing • cancer . Well you can guess what the storyline is already. 

Anyways . I really really really wanna watch Pompeii . No one wanna watch with meeeee . Sigh. 

But I bet I'll be pestering the friend cos I can't understand Hahahahahah I just wanna see how the city crumble. Aha I feel such a saddist . 

Gonna mug on POA tonight then I can rest tomorrow! 

CCA resumes on Thursday . Yay! Really hope everything goes smoothly, it's been going downhill recently . 

Byes  

//turn left turn right

I got enlightened today :D hehehheheheheh thanks cher.
why didn't think of that, using interest ahahahah.

anyways . what a day today, well nothing out of the norm but guess what.

I GOT 77 FOR E MATH AHAHAH

its been such a long time since i saw an A1 for my math results. ahahhaah but its only because the paper was easy, i actually haven't started revising sec 3 work . hiaz buck buck buck up up up

didn't had a good sleep last night, was so groggy after dinz , and i haven't started on chem yet. 

ahah combined sci TA tmr. good luck guise

"knowing is nothing, interest is everything" 

 so heres an image of me studying half wayyy

ahahaha 不要脸。

gonna stay up today . hiaz 

i got high on twitter ahah i need chocolates 

ahhhhhaaaaa goodnight

Morningggg it's 9.15 nowz. Slept just before 2 I guess. 

Hiaz didn't sleep well. Anyways I managed to get more pictures for my coursework! I just need to print and draw them. 

It's stay home Sunday and I'm gonna be mugginggggggggg . Bio Chem POA and let's try to do 3 sketches ? :/ 

Gonna be fending my own tummy all daaaayyyy . Does pasta in canned soup and corn sound nice for brunch? 

Just gonna laze till it's past 10 sigh . 

taken 200 ++ pictures todaaaayyyy.
why do i still have the reluctancy to draw?
why ? even after doing well for the glass bottle,
is it because i don't like drawing?
because I'm still afraid of the results?
i can't face the fact that i can't draw?
i know that i can improve by practicing,
but every time i grab the pencil , i just cant.
i tried ya know, i do
but i can't draw why help
no one understands. even not me.

// It all starts now or never

ayee
I got over and done with Grade 5 practical ,Piano ABRSM exam.
yeah over and done with , screwing everything up :|

Chanced upon a picture of Whitehaven beach, Australia

this is so going into my bucket list.

Speaking about bucket list, post-Olvls fun has already been on my mind :3 ,
well of course fun only comes after I'm contented & do well.


bad habits die hard. gosh i should have a good body clock . why do i like sleeping in so much,,

its only february and i want a getaway already, how we survive till november. tell me tell me tell me.

PhotoTakaing adventure with parentsz tmr. Art coursework, 10 quality observational drawings & 2 developmental ones by 3 March. Can I even do 1? I doubt so.
Say hi when you see a short girl using an iPhone 4 going around churches taking pictures.

I should really start work.

//2014

Two months almost gone in 2014. What have I done? 

So many feelings, so many emotions, but at the end of the day, you know everyone's still gonna face it. 

GCE 'O lvls is the problem. Well problem ? Its gonna be the one that determines everything, that's gonna change our lives, for the better for the worse. 

Well there's no point dwelling about how its gonna affect us , but maybe we should stop self pitying and start moving . 

Ever since the introduction of tertiary education this year, I had no idea what to do after secondary school. I wasn't interested in business, not interested in engineering , and for the first time in my life I was considering to aim for Junior College . I just wanted to be successful in life, but hell who doesn't want to be successful.

I thought and thought , researched and asked , I was actually so depressed for not knowing what I want, what to aim for. I didn't have any direction until school gave us the Ngee Ann Poly booklet. 

I know what I want. I know what I want to do. - Arts Business Management. 

Previous' L1R4 cut off was 9. I must be a genius to be interested in that course. 

Lets be optimistic and just study all the way, 8 months is nothing. Determination is everything.