Tell me why.

Okay hello.
Had a very very hectic day. I was worrying over my chemistry test the whole night yesterday. Not only that. I feel a growing distance between all of my friends and I. I know that my temper's bad and I can't stand certain people. But I'm trying my best to change you see.. One of the things I cherish in life, in the world's friendship. I can't afford to loose friendship. I depend alot on my friends. I'm the only child. I can't seek anyone else. I hate it like this. I really want the old us. Where the whole big bunch of us stay together, play together, laugh together, cry together. I really miss those times. I know I'm bad. But I'm trying to change correct? I'm so sorry. I miss you guys :'( The times we had with each other's precious. This goes out to all of my girlfriends. All of you guys.

I had to stay back in school for my panelist judging once again and a group wasn't well prepared. It gave us panelists all a headache. After the judging 3 of us needa rush for tuition and get our teacher's presents for teacher's day after tuition. I was already having a headache during tuition and the choosing of presents was worse. My dad called me to rush us because he wanted to get his dinner. Couldn't he wait a little longer? I barely had lunch and I can't even buy my dinner. Wait a little will die isit? Now all because of him, I need wait for almost another hour for my dinner.

Getting onto the car. The first thing I breathed in was. Cigarette smoke. Was he back to smoking again? I thought he quit? Why? There wouldn't be any smell of smoke if he didn't smoke right? So he must've smoked. But I'm afraid to confront him. I asked him but he wasn't honest. How? Do I ask him again? That smell of smoke worsened my headache. It's bad. Really bad. I still have homework and loads of pressies to prepare.

I really can't handle all this pressure anymore. I'm gonna snap. I hate headaches.

Alright.
Bye Xx

Ain't nothing but a heartache

Well hello!
I guess I'm feeling alright today X3
Just got a little bored at home. Haha I did nothing much today.. Just went for the talk regarding my streaming for next year then I had CCA. We packed the Librarian cupboard today and I have some views about :X
Well here's my rant~ I failed. I confess that I failed as a Librarian. But, you can't entirely blame me right? No one taught me the ropes. Not exactly but.. yeah you know. We actually needed our majors to help us out and instruct our Head Librarian. She totally nonchalant. Not to smear but you get what I mean. The cupboard was really really in a mess and nothing was planned. I rearranged the photocopied and binded conductor scores. Strength wreaking. :( We should really plan something but I, as a junior librarian can't do much.. Let natural's beauty take its place, Shall we?
So... I'm going to Bugis once again to get someone's birthday Pressie. Excited! I just know what to get her!<3  Emmm I haven't been doing much for my First ever fanfiction but I promise it'll get into progress later in the night! :)
I guess I'll stop here today.
Nighties! Xx

It took my life from positive to negative.

Hello people. I'm alive:)
Alrights This post's not gonna recollect all the events that happened for the past week or two.. So yeah just stay one and read my rant yeah?

Isn't it weird to be odd? I'm an odd person I have to admit. My 'sisters' I class are mostly StudentCouncilors while I'm not. SC's are super busy people with events and stuff. So yeah I'm like. Always alone going home. :( and. BandMembers I'm close with are ALL secondary threes -except for Nicholas- and they're all EXCOs. They talk loads of stuff I shouldn't be listening about. And I'd feel extra and stuff. I think it's just.. Fate
-confession- I'll feel uneasy when I'm near a male I know. Uneasy as in nervous and stuff. How can I be like the others? Care free and more. I'm ugly and fat. While others are pretty and thin. The total opposite of me. Why is life like that? Why can't it be equal?

Two words. FriendShip's brittle.
I used to be very close and united to all of my friends. We'll go hyper together, have fun together, laugh together. I really miss the times we had. Ever since my birthday 'party' everyone's falling apart. my closest' friend's now drifting away. It's hard you know? With a bitch who look downs on people, who thinks she can rap and sing well, who thinks she's hardworking and smart. Listen. I can beat you if I get down serious on my work. I'm just lazy. And I admit it.
Dear, she looked down on you not only once as you can see. I can't see the point why you're closer to her when you used to be my closest sister last time.. I admit. I have a bad temper. I have moodswings often and I get crossed easily. But everything happens for a reason? It's like your actions are still childish when you're actually 16 already. Yes 16. 2 years older than me but you're like 2 years younger. I don't know. I may be the one who matures fast. But who cares? We're sisters right? I really hate myself. I try to control my temper but it's totally uncontrollable. I miss the old us.

Now. JYSS'12 2E4 used to be a very happy class until MissCircle came in. An old hag who don't understands us. But I know she's doing for our best but. The way she treats us is just unruly and ridiculous. First she separates our desks. Then she shifts everyone's place to a big big pile of mess. Then she shifts my male partner whom I've been siting with part of secondary one till now. See. My partner's my friend so yeah. All because of my other friend, boo. Caused us to stop being friends. She caused all the awkwardness between us all because of a good night text. She paired us up as couples and made loads of comments. When I don't even like him. Only as a friend and partner. No one was supporting her. As usual but it caused us to be classmates only. Not even friends. -See Phyllis boo? If you're reading this. I hope you know what you've done. I lost a male friend.-

I guess I'm done here.
Byes. Thanks for reading!
Xx Sam

Before you came into my life I missed you so bad.

Okay a serious post now!
The week went past quickly for me. It was the week our Singapore's national day fall. The parade was alright and I think I found my uncle playing in the parade's band! :) We needed to perform in the parade our school was conducting. I went past in a flash and we were all in a rush. We needed to change to our red tees and join our class to do our CIP work which was giving out flag. 

In the morning with my band uniform without my blazer!

Our allocated block's void deck!

FreeBies! <3

after our school's celebration, I met up with my primary school mates! HuiLin, ZhiLin and Shanice. We had Mcdonalds for lunch and went up to the open plaza. They attacked me with a cushion hammer they bought for my birthday! :)

Beautiful Shanice :) 

So yeah.. we had a break from school from Thursday to Sunday. Mom and I went out bugis to shop on NationalDay! 9.8.12 Yes!

Then at night Meredith and I came out to have some drinks and chat. We got so. so high. :)

Thats all for my national day Celebration! Bye Lovelies!

xx

Someone.

Well hello. You might call this a sentimental post or whatever. Here you go!

Isn't life full of values? Growing up is a process which I much enjoy. We were once innocent and naive. But as times past and experiences flow, we'll learn to understand and learn more.  When I was young, I didn't know what I like. Many things influence me. Take music for example. I didn't know that I had the passion for pop music until a few months ago. And here I am now, singing and having fun with music. I realise that i have missed out alot and am enjoying myself now. Its like some people mature faster some people mature slower. I like to know what I truly like in this process of growing up. Its with the influence we get. I understood loads of things i didn't last time. Like friendship and shit. Friendship is one of the important stuff in life. You can't see it but you can feel it. Growing up is what everyone will go through but not everyone enjoys it. I really can't wait to grow up and be a more matured person. Honestly, I think I mature faster then most people but it doesn't matter. People will still take me as a 14 year old small little girl. Let me tell you I don't like to be treated like a young naive girl. I don't know what made me write this but... I just want to this is my blog. nothing can stop me. I cant wait to go through experiences that mature me more. Letting me know more about what's coming up in life. Maybe I'm the only child at home and I sorta keep my true feelings to myself. I really really want a sibling I can confide at home. Someone you can trust. Someone to cry on. I haven't told my parents much of my true feelings so yeah.. The only people who can understand me is my wonderful friends.. I know they judge me but I doesn't matter. Im fat. Im ugly. Its a fact. But I am who I am. I really want a sibling who can accompany me through life. I feel that I'm like all alone. I'm not exactly close to my cousins so I can't find them. I like heart to heart talks but I don't have the courage to have one with my friends. I'm afraid they'll judge me.. I messed up. But i know growing up will tell me what to do. 
What matters most are my friends. They make me laugh. Make me feel like myself. I'm actually used to be all alone after school. With countless of thoughts flowing vividly through my mind. But at the end of the day, my greatest wish is to have someone to cuddle on. Someone to cry on. Someone to confide in. Someone to protect me.



Alright I have no idea why I am writing this but I can't control my hands. Okay bye. <3
Xx

Cry your tears on my shoulders.

suppyyy
Okayss so I attended the wedding of Eftoni & Joel yesterday. It was the Church Ceremony in the morning. I love love my aunt's Wedding gown and veil. She was gorgeous. <3 Her husband wasn't bad too! So here are some photos <3

Pretty Ladies!

                                   

GrandMa and I <3

Cutie cousin

GrandUncle and Uncle<3 

Dad <3

Staring Contest with her GrandUncle 

The flower boy was so so cute! He actually fell down. ;)

How adorable <3

BridesMaid

Look at the smile on her face! 

Her Gown

Newlyweds 

His Gaze..

The church ceremony was awesome.. We went home to rest and prepare for the dinner!
Mom and I went to the salon :) Photossss

WaterFallBraidddd

I've put on my dress!

GrandMa's Attire

CarShot!

 Our table allocation went haywire and we, supposedly sitting in the first row got shifted to the last. How sad. :(

Melissaaa <3

Beautiful Aunt

Rose from Mel's mom with her B'day invitation and wedding gift! 

SOOO here's about what happened yesterday. There's a cocktail party tonight at Miramar hotel where my GrandUncle booked! Ill try to post up the photos and events soon!

This is how I feel, cold and I'm ashamed

Hello people.
It's been quite a lonely day for me :( I've been dreaming all the way during lessons.
Well let me share with you something.,
>miss yuen's lesson<

MissYuen:WEIJIE! WHY ARE YOU TALKING TO SAMMY?! BOTH OF YOU STOP DAYDREAMING!
Weijie and Sammy: BLUR BLUR FACES
MissYuen: looks around the class room.
Me: looking at Sammy and weijie, mind zoomed out.
Turns head.
See MissYuen's finger down on my table. Wanting me to change my seat with weijie.(remember I was sat right in front? Yeah we haven't move back to the originals.)
Class smirking.
I had a shock of my life

That's about it. So yeah. Hahah. Guitar members have cca today, tomorrow and Friday. LonelyDieMe. Whoops CCA tomorrow:) a skit was performed just now during CCE period.. It was about drugs and they sang a few songs. :) SECRETS.
JiaYi and I aren't going too well.. its like we're not that close anymore.. Hmm I wrote her a letter. I'll see how this goes. I really miss those times. <3
Alright I'll go on reading another chapter of my Fanfic and go to bed now!
LoveYouAll.
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