Tell me why.

Okay hello.
Had a very very hectic day. I was worrying over my chemistry test the whole night yesterday. Not only that. I feel a growing distance between all of my friends and I. I know that my temper's bad and I can't stand certain people. But I'm trying my best to change you see.. One of the things I cherish in life, in the world's friendship. I can't afford to loose friendship. I depend alot on my friends. I'm the only child. I can't seek anyone else. I hate it like this. I really want the old us. Where the whole big bunch of us stay together, play together, laugh together, cry together. I really miss those times. I know I'm bad. But I'm trying to change correct? I'm so sorry. I miss you guys :'( The times we had with each other's precious. This goes out to all of my girlfriends. All of you guys.

I had to stay back in school for my panelist judging once again and a group wasn't well prepared. It gave us panelists all a headache. After the judging 3 of us needa rush for tuition and get our teacher's presents for teacher's day after tuition. I was already having a headache during tuition and the choosing of presents was worse. My dad called me to rush us because he wanted to get his dinner. Couldn't he wait a little longer? I barely had lunch and I can't even buy my dinner. Wait a little will die isit? Now all because of him, I need wait for almost another hour for my dinner.

Getting onto the car. The first thing I breathed in was. Cigarette smoke. Was he back to smoking again? I thought he quit? Why? There wouldn't be any smell of smoke if he didn't smoke right? So he must've smoked. But I'm afraid to confront him. I asked him but he wasn't honest. How? Do I ask him again? That smell of smoke worsened my headache. It's bad. Really bad. I still have homework and loads of pressies to prepare.

I really can't handle all this pressure anymore. I'm gonna snap. I hate headaches.

Alright.
Bye Xx