Someone.

Well hello. You might call this a sentimental post or whatever. Here you go!

Isn't life full of values? Growing up is a process which I much enjoy. We were once innocent and naive. But as times past and experiences flow, we'll learn to understand and learn more.  When I was young, I didn't know what I like. Many things influence me. Take music for example. I didn't know that I had the passion for pop music until a few months ago. And here I am now, singing and having fun with music. I realise that i have missed out alot and am enjoying myself now. Its like some people mature faster some people mature slower. I like to know what I truly like in this process of growing up. Its with the influence we get. I understood loads of things i didn't last time. Like friendship and shit. Friendship is one of the important stuff in life. You can't see it but you can feel it. Growing up is what everyone will go through but not everyone enjoys it. I really can't wait to grow up and be a more matured person. Honestly, I think I mature faster then most people but it doesn't matter. People will still take me as a 14 year old small little girl. Let me tell you I don't like to be treated like a young naive girl. I don't know what made me write this but... I just want to this is my blog. nothing can stop me. I cant wait to go through experiences that mature me more. Letting me know more about what's coming up in life. Maybe I'm the only child at home and I sorta keep my true feelings to myself. I really really want a sibling I can confide at home. Someone you can trust. Someone to cry on. I haven't told my parents much of my true feelings so yeah.. The only people who can understand me is my wonderful friends.. I know they judge me but I doesn't matter. Im fat. Im ugly. Its a fact. But I am who I am. I really want a sibling who can accompany me through life. I feel that I'm like all alone. I'm not exactly close to my cousins so I can't find them. I like heart to heart talks but I don't have the courage to have one with my friends. I'm afraid they'll judge me.. I messed up. But i know growing up will tell me what to do. 
What matters most are my friends. They make me laugh. Make me feel like myself. I'm actually used to be all alone after school. With countless of thoughts flowing vividly through my mind. But at the end of the day, my greatest wish is to have someone to cuddle on. Someone to cry on. Someone to confide in. Someone to protect me.



Alright I have no idea why I am writing this but I can't control my hands. Okay bye. <3
Xx